Hi Gary,
Welcome!
Sorry to hear your feeling down.
Don't know what you look like, so I can't offer any suggestions on appearances. Are you maybe looking in the wrong places for acceptance? I mean are you into the club scene or something similar? They are such cold places to begin with. People who only think about appearances are really not even worth a relationship anyway.
Hope you stay and continue to post, so we can get to know you.
Colors