Thank you all.

Mickey, thanks... I am just SO damned tired of the fight. I feel I cannot keep going like this. I cannot keep up the strength and will to survive. I've always had to fight my way through..... I am soo done with it all. But thank you for sending me some strength to try and get through this battle, too.

Purple, thank you as well.. it is hard not to be paranoid right now. But you're right... it's tough times economically and I have had little breakthroughs.... hopefully this will prove to be short-lived, but I just don't know. Hard not to feel like the universe is working against me.

Hoping, thanks as well.... I don't know about an entry level job. I need a certain amount to survive here where I live. Plus, in order to progress, I really should get a full-time job in my field at a salary commensurate with my experience level.

Ugh is all I can say right now.