There's a line of T thinking in which they try not to positively reinforce or give attention to SI or SH. I dont know about your T and her theory of practice, but that went through my mind. I am sorry you didn't fee safe, helped, and embraced. This topic is huge to every T, and I bet she is thinking about it right now. My T once gave me nooooooo reaction to the only time I had a fleeting question about quality of life / being worth it , but then I was unchariteristically late to the next session. He was pacing near the door and greeted me almost in the hall near the elevator, saying how glad he was to see me today. It made me realize how studied his reactions can be, and he was really, really worried. I do not have SUI generally, but that session pushed too hard for me to handle at that time . He said then that is was too evocative and we would be more careful, and he as kept his word on that. I think your T is pondering about you right now.