My avatar is always related to the shamanism I believed in during psychosis. It started as a crow but several people in the S and P forums had crow hallucinations so I changed it due to the triggering nature. This one is a spirit animal I referred to as cloud tiger and it could morph between several big cats......black jaguar, white tiger and here snow leopard.....while the eyes are artificially colored in this image it was the only one that looked like the eyes of the cloud tiger in my vision.