Ok, you have low self esteem. You sold yourself short in the past. You were putting out your body in hopes you’d win love, but just felt used.

It’s too bad this bf isn’t a healthy relationship. It would have been nice for you to have secured a real, loving one.

But this guy’s sick. His attitude, even about the STD blaming is so abusive. He seems good to you because he cares and wants commitment with you, but he’s a worse trap than your past friends with benefits.

IMHO ten partners at age 29 is not so many people. And one partner is all it takes to get an STD.

It was when AIDS came to be that me and my whole generation ended the party and instantly got married. I was terrified for the next ten years because they said it could lie dormant in you for ten years.