I told T that I loved him, I tried to crawl away and hide out of intense shame. He handled it amazingly well, he hugged me longer than usual at the end, and promised he is not changing everything.

Such a weird but amazing feeling to be able to say that word to someone and they don't freak out. I'm scared and uncomfortable but hopefully he keeps me feeling normal about it and I am able to accept these feelings.

We had a nice walk too, was beautiful out. I got to wear shoes and not boots! AHHH