First off, I was alone for eight years and managed to cope quite well. Sure, I was emotionally empty being alone, but never was it problematic. Not even four months has gone by since my boyfriend and I have moved in together. He is away for the week on an assignment for work - and I am absolutely miserable.
I am dealing with an emptiness that is new to me. I am feeling trapped by it. There are other emotions too. I am quite anxious about being alone. Am I safe? Turning in at night has been difficult as I am faced not only with the prospect of being apart but I am frightened of something bad happening. I am 'performing' some obsessive compulsions (if I put this sock on first nothing bad will happen, if I touch the door repeatedly I will be safe, etc) It all is unpleasant.
How do others cope with a similar situation? (three more nights to go)
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