Yeah. I relate. My mom used to do that to me as a child... well, she still does as an adult, but it's not so bad now since I rarely see her. At some point I really did wonder if I had imagined all these things. I was lucky to have two adults tell me later in life that some of what I recalled was in fact correct because they were there to see it happen.It felt both good and heart breaking to hear them say those things to me... hard pills to swallow, you know.
I put my husband out of the house a few months back. One of the things he admitted to doing was gaslighting me about things he was doing and about how I was feeling, my head stuff. It hurts.
I have yet to figure out how to deal with it. I struggle to be able to gauge the accuracy/validity/reality of my own thoughts without other people throwing wrenches into my tick tock workings. I'm not stable enough for that.
Sorry you have to deal with this. It's a form of emotional abuse and it is in no way, shape or form, alright. You so deserve better than that.
-Avery
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no hugs or prayers pls n thx
(dx list: DID/PTSD, ASD, GAD, OCD, LMNOP)
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