The best I got is, for us the main is the one who does the most day to day life stuff in any given span of time. For the last few months I had been flying solo, so to speak (until the last few days anyway) so had you ased me three wees ago who the main was I would have said me, just because it was me mostly living life. A year ago I might have said Veda, four years ago I might have said Charlotte. Somewhere between those years I would have said; Aporia, Gwen, and NiKKi. That stuff changes for me, us, whatever. We go in cycles, but even then there are more than one of us living life, just one person does the most 'adulting' so they get dubbed the main because of that.. even when they do not feel like the main one. I mean, it's hard to feel like the main one when you are ten people in any given day. You know it's not just your life...

We never did/have figured out who this life belongs to. The best we got is to try to do best and follow some basic rules, and hope whoever shows up next will not hate this life, regret our choices, or make things worse for whoever comes next. Me? I just try real hard to not resent choices I have no recollection of making that I find myself forced to live. None of us feel this is our reality, yet somehow we are forced to live it every single day because clearly it is our life, my life. Makes my brain hurt...

Sorry... not trying to be complaining... just in a not so great place today. Ima shaddup now...

-Avery