One: I was still unwell after being on a 28 day section including suicide watch and issued meds
Two: I was not talking to my father anymore. I was not close to his family. His sister was a toxic gossip. I would have felt worse than a fish out of water. I couldnt have a drink to settle nerves. I was fresh on my bi polar meds.
Three: My home life was unsteady enough without creating more waves with my proper parents.
Four: Fred told me that my Father now referred to me as oh "her" and told everyone not to even mention my name . So screw him
Five: He should have been ashamed of the way he neglected my grandma as her dementia got hold. He was at home all day not working but didn't even bother cooking her tea when he made his own. One toastie a day he pushed himself to make.
NIL by mouth. I accept your apology. I should hate my mother more than anyone but to omit her altogether from her mum's funeral speech when she kept her company every single day for five years. You take her on two trips that benefitted yourself also and you got all the glory. It wasn't fair on my mum
I never went to London with my dad back then because it would have caused too many problems with my mum n step dad as I lived with them.
At my Granda s funeral you took her round to meet all the family when you hadn't visited for at least five years. Hypocrites. Spending time means more than money.
To think i had been reduced to feeling happy when a person simply took the effort to say hello Jenny. Of course I felt invisible. Of course I felt stigmatised. I wish I could un do so many things but there's only now. All I want is a chance.