Not sure what’s happening mood wise. I took an Ativan before work. I’m definitely feeling calmer. Still trying to finagle Thursday and Friday off, even though I didn’t ask the dr for fmla. I have a family illness day so I can say my son is sick. Which, he actually is, he just doesn’t need to stay home from school. It’s allergies, I’m fairly certain. Now that all the plants are blooming. I feel like if I could have a couple of days off to let the rexulti increase work I might be better equipped to deal with this. So I think I’m going to do it. End game is they fire me. As I’ve said that can only help at this point.

Ativan is making me feel calm but kind of out of it. But not terribly so. Definitely workable.