I was manic, psychotic and mixed. I was not able to understand why they admitted me in the psych ward, at all- I believed they had all gone crazy, everyone but me…
Yeah, I assume I was a tiny bit out of this world

I think it is better to go voluntary than wait until you are admitted involuntary. Usually you have more ‘benefits’ voluntary, like personal belongings and stuff.

(They only kept me for a week though, I acted as normal as I could. It was a struggle for weeks, if not months, after getting out)

Big hug to you, I can totally understand the burden put upon you are really big now. Having to be the provider and everything else happening- no wonder you are struggling. And don’t feel bad or feel guilty for how you react. First: it’s not minor stresses, they are pretty big. Second: stress and bipolar are not good friends, so even if it was small thing- we sometimes get wiggled out of balance.

You are pretty darn strong that still keeping your head above water. I really hope you get some help, so you don’t have to carry it all on your shoulders alone. Whether it’s help at home or if it is a stay in hospital/ward.