Today my ex T came to the clinic to see me. I didnt call her, she did it. I was glad about it but it also didnt feel right because i had ended with her a month ago. Problem is. Shes so kind and i feel soo filled of guilt knowing what I'll do to her (and anybodyelse i know).

Why is she torturing herself, what does she get from.it?
I know she cares but i think she should keep the distances.

Coleagues are nicer than i expected, ill stay at the clinic bout another week, probably less..

I AM SORRY FOR T, FOR HURTING HER KNOWINGLY... and she knows that

Old T inststea looked to cold and uncaring, dont know why.... i feel all.alone with my.plans..