I do realize some people will always act ****, and that's not news to me but I think because of those two "ex-friends" (and now this family member) I somehow have different emotional reactions now to all of it from other people too. Like, not just plain annoyance, or some kind of "normal" anger, but this different kind of very bad anger. And with this family member this anger (either inward or outward turned) of course reacts stronger because this isn't just a random person again.

I just don't know what exactly changed or why or what to do with that.

It's like... I took it more personally than ever before. It's like my trust was directly abused in a way never before. Etc.

Does that make sense? Can anyone help with some input on this? I can't analyze this further atm, I'm still bad at seeing feelings.