Just read something rather upsetting on the internet. I don’t feel like a real person because I struggle to remember my childhood. The outcome, though, has been disastrous. I think I did something wrong, abusive. Truly a terrible child. I just want to kill myself. I don’t know what to do. How can I atone for it? I can’t remember much of anything. Every now and then I feel extremely angry towards my parents, who I did not treat well. I feel justified in how bad I was during childhood, because of xyz. but then I remember that everything was great. The only bad thing was me. I’m a bad person. It’s a nightmare, I didn’t handle the stresses of my childhood well and look what happened. I have no idea why I have gotten so bad. Unable to have relationships or stop being depressed and a bad person. From the time I was a child, I was cursed and shunned. My parents didn’t discipline me enough. I showed them no respect. I’ve lost everything because I could not be disciplined, because Im bad. Even now I’m a problem, causing people much grief. I think everything has gone wrong. My life is a ruin, I have no past, I don’t feel real. I don’t know what the hell happened.