thank you so much katydid....I want to tell you something...but I will tell you here for everyone to see..

I HAVE A MENTAL ILLNESS....I have been trying to get other people....like my wife.. to accept that I have a mental illness...to understand me....well that hasn't happened....and now I realize that I NEED TO ACCEPT WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME...I am doing that now....I am not as defensive about my mental illness...I am even making fun of some of my funny ways...I am not as defensive with others...even when they want to be critical of me...they might also have a problem with themselves...they may be people who like to blame others for their own faults...