(Written to T)
So, this was an enlightening session. I didn't get it when before I left, you said, "sitting in your room like a teenager." It was like I heard you say it but it took me until I was on the ground floor to process it and this was my reaction: Huh?

It was interesting when I was telling you about the dynamic with the person at work and you said this was important. I agree. When i arrived at your office, I felt relieved because the truth was finally evident to me. It makes me feel less like I have no idea what is going on, and more like, I have gotten it all along but just didn't know it. The defense mechanism made perfect sense. I feel like I am free from this entanglement. Not sure if I am, but am hoping.

Last week, I confronted said person of something she implicitly stated in passing. I asked her a question as to what she meant, and she at first was silent, and at that point, I forcefully asked her a few pointed questions. After a few questions that she tried to not answer, she just said, I don't know what you are talking about. She was upset, understandably, at me for something I did and hinted that she was upset but refused to admit her anger. Could it be me? YEs. But I don't think so. I've seen her do the same thing to other people. I've seen her talk about people, and then act like she loves them. I'm not demonizing her, however, nor am I going to continue in that unhealthy dynamic. This is the first time that I have been able to validate myself and not question my validation if myself. When I figured this out, it was physically a complete relief.