Hi everyone. So sorry I haven’t been commenting on your posts recently but I’ve been very unwell. Still, I have been reading your posts and wish you all well.

For over a month I’ve been in a mixed episode. It has been hell. My mood has been up and down. Very agitated and having hallucinations. Also constantly feel like I’m in a movie which can be amazing at times but when it’s dark I’m very scared. My pdoc was of no help but my T has been an incredible support. He is helping me stay out of hospital and cope with my symptoms. I’ve started taking Haloperidol again but can only take it for a few days at a time as it makes my vision blurry. Unfortunate as it helps immensely. Guess I’m going to have to ride this out.

I’ve started back at university and feel overwhelmed already. Not sure if I will make it though this semester if my health doesn’t improve but I will try. This movie feeling is very unsettling as I have to act all the time. I know what social norms expect so I do that but I don’t know who I am or where I am. Life is frightening right now as I often don’t know what’s real. I have a finger nail grip on reality and know I could go into full blown psychosis at any time. Anyway, that’s my update.