Hi there
Welcome to the forums.
Would it be too personal to ask you what it is that makes you feel un attractive? Most of us have imperfections, physical and/or psychological, but I would find things very dull if everyone was picture perfect, there are things about me that I can afford to change but refuse to, want to keep my "character", things that make me "me".
I have a less than perfect nose but will not change the shape, I have pock marks from teenage acne, and reluctant to have surgery to remove them, I've gotten by this far in life, finding out that some people have found me attractive just the way I am and then there will always be the others that feel different, I have learned to say the hell with it, life is not a beauty contest as far as I am concerned, the main thing I do not like and work hard at it is my shape, you know that mid life deamon.
From personal experience I feel meds do help with depression besides new mindset(s) on life.
Try not to be so hard on yourself, I am sure deep inside you are a beautiful person that needs to loosen up about the outer shell thing.
This takes some work on your part and it can be difficult, but try it, look deep within yourself, explore different talents, maybe art, poetry, music, photography, this helps unlock the true you, expressing what really helps others to see who you are while teaching you there is so much more in life than society's shallow "beauty contest"
I am glad you have come here, and wish for you to talk here, make friends, the people here are so compassionate and supportive.
This place has been my little refuge, especially when my world gets ugly, the people here are like a big family, so hang around and feel free to chat with us.
I see people through their goodness, not their looks, in fact my husband can't understand how people I meet men and woman that maybe scarred, white hair, and maybe a little kooky can be attractive in my eyes, no "pretty boys" for me, ha!ha! But that is me

Take care now,

Sincerely,
DE