Every day has been touch and go. T had me “explore” some “compounded grief” until I couldn’t take any more sobbing and asked her to change topics.
I saw PNP who increased my anti d. I am finally a bit better tonight. Earlier today I was safety planning with a SW about possible sub q (a step down from hospital but still a locked facility) or respite (a step down from that and not locked). But I couldn’t decide.
I did put some things in place- who would take care of my cat and where.
I’ve not been to sub q... for now I think I am ok. It helps having a plan in place. Though, I’m afraid the weekend will come and I won’t be able to access my team from Friday- Monday.