I saw my first therapist in 3rd grade so this depression thing is not new. I cannot count the number of major depressive episodes I've had in my 50 years and I need two hands to count the number of hospitalization. So, what is the goal?

Is a cure even reasonable? Or do I hope for a remission, living in constant knowledge that it could come back at any time, or simply management with meds and therapy, acknowledging the depression is a deep river running through me, millimeters to meters below the surface? If it is the latter, does this mean meds and therapy forever? Sometimes this feels so confusing.