I'm missing him a lot but even my best friend was starting to dislike him because he wouldn't budge on seeing me. It turned into me having to go to him all the time, and that's when the relationship ended. My mom wouldn't let me go unless I was moving in with him, and I'm trying to listen to her because she's been right before. But I hate the way she goes about it.

I hate being single I've been single basically since I've been crazy. Throughout my 30's I was single, now in my 40's I've dated a couple guys. But it hasn't been good. I know I need to focus on independent living but the best way for me to be independent from my mom is when I'm in a relationship with a guy.

Housing is costly here and affording it on my own is super difficult. But with a guy it would be a lot easier. He was supposed to be the guy. Now I'm looking at renting a room which I really don't want to do. Just because it might save me 100 bucks a month. For that I"d rather have a cheap apartment.

Housing really matters to me, I grew up in a super nice house. I have expectations of places that makes it that much harder for me. I can't just take any old place. I'm a house snob.