I can sort of understand your feelings since I also have a tendency to get overly attached to people. I wonder if you wouldn't have better support from a website specifically dedicated to childcare. I think in this case you probably just need time to get over it, but maybe this isn't a good job for you in the long run, if it's natural for you to get so attached to the children. Also, since you're now experiencing this *void* in your life, maybe you could try to fill it with something new.