I believe you when you say you're trying.Just keep trying and doing the best you can.Change isn't going to happen over night.It takes time,a long time.Look how long it took you to get where you are now,you can't expect instant change.

I have been using all the tools I have learnef for the past 8 years or so.I'm still not where I want or need to be.Sometimes it's disheartening and frustrating and I want to give up and sink into a deep depression over it.But I have to pull myself up and keep trudging forward.I have to focus on the good and the progress I have made,otherwise it can all take me down.

Look at you,you're working,something you said you couldn't do at all and didn't even want to try.Every day that you go is progress and also helping you learn to cope with your issues.You are doing so much better than you are giving yourself credit for.

How was your appointment?