I’m so down, destroyed and of course my pain is insane.

Between the Rheumatologist deal. Yesterday.

I saw my old Pdoc which was nice to see a familiar face he covers the old place and the new place I go to now. he mentioned my old T of 6 years and said he’s down to just 2 days a week. .... I felt the world caving in .. the woman that did my intake appt at this new place flat out told me he retired ! Flat out effing lie !!!! Why why lie about it , I couldn’t go back to him as the center had met there Medicare limit , I get it I really do.... but why lie ????

I just want to sleep just sleep instead of having so much screaming in my brain.

Why do people lie ? Why the hell lie????

I just can’t understand it.