((((((((Krazibean)))))))

I hear you. That sounds very difficult and frustrating for you I know what it feels like to want someone like that, and when that need is not met, how much more it hurts.

I think that its very important for you to talk to your T about everything you just said. Tell her that you were frustrated with her for not talking about it ... she can't help you in that respect if she's not aware how she's hurting you.

Do you journal at all? Sometimes that helps me feel comforted... even if its just by allowing myself some time to think about that person - in your case, your T.

Be gentle with yourself,
Hugs
Jacq