It is sometimes very hard to properly convey what I want to say. I'm just having a really hard time these days and fed up with things in general.

I feel like something fundamental inside is gone or broken. A part of what makes me "me", has been discontinued. It doesn't hurt, it isn't scary or disorientating, it's just ... "nobody home" you know? Complete passivity. Resignation. I want to care and I can't bring myself to express it properly.

Sometimes you think "Life, seriously, can you get worse?" and it says, "Hold my beer ..." and then one day you just stop caring anymore.