Wow, I feel like I just got hit by a bus. I've been quite pleased over the last two months with how the increase in dosage on my medication improved my energy and mood. But the past two days the smiles have felt fake and today I am completely overwhelmed. I'm a grad student in the middle of writing my thesis and have a deadline at midnight tonight on a chapter that is only half done, but my day was so packed I barely had time to breathe. To top it off I met with my therapist today and she can no longer see me regularly and suggested I find someone else, but I can't imagine doing so because it has taken me so long to open up to her as little as it has been and starting over seems pointless.

And I just want to curl in bed and cry but I have to make it through the next two days before I can breathe.

It's so hard to take two steps forward and one step back...