You have described what I have felt since going off some meds and getting new drs and all that...but pink you HAVE and ARE doing what I can only dream of...I truly suck at finishing anything. YOU can DO it!!!! Your dream is at hand...that is a ton of stress I bet. I get so afraid of accomplishing something I always sabatoge myself, and knowing doesnt always make it right or better...but hopefully you will get in and things will fall in place and this bump in the road will not be a roadblock..I send good thoughts and feelings. melanie