So sorry, Eve.

Your poor brain does seem to be crying out for a holiday. As you say, that feeling of avoiding things is not the same as healthily putting your issues aside.

Even assuming you have only a few dollars to spare, is there any place or person or way you could take a weekend away?

If it were me, I'd hopefully try and book a dirt-cheap room in an out-of-season holiday town. I could probably get one for £20. A cheapest-available coach ticket? About £17!

For me, it would be an investment, as long walks on the beach, and refusing to let myself try and solve any of my problems for a whole weekend, would do my brain the world of good.

Thinking of you, Eve!

You will prevail!