everything is getting to just be too much. i know i'm still young and have my whole life ahead of me, but i'm just so incredibly sad all the time. it's frusterating. Even when i'm laughing with my friends having a great time, a still feel that horrible twinge of pain.
i cut myself. i don't want to, it just happens. a couple nights ago i cut too deep and cut into some muscle and i thought i was going to bleed out after 5 minutes... I don't know what to do.
even when i'm surrounded by my best friends i'm still alone, i'm always alone. i'm sick of it. i feel like i'm too young to be taking medication, and i really don't want to go see a psychiatrist.