And then what makes it worse is when I look up videos on avpd or people similar it's like they always got one or two people to hang out with. How the ***** do u have avpd and a social life? I have zero friends never dated and the few people that are interested in me I'm not interested in or else they start to behave just like everybody else. Never dated or none of that. And most people will look at me like I'm crazy like "what the hell is wrong with her. Mid 20s. No friends? No boyfriend?" Nope. Because of the way I've been treated by other people. I haven't been rejecting people they've been rejecting me.

So now I've become a misanthrope. I hate humanity as a whole.