Hello watermelonrind: I'm sorry you are struggling with this. I cannot say I have had the experience you've had. I have overdosed twice. But in those cases, bringing my existence to a close was what I had in mind. What I can say though is that, over the years, I have found quite a few different ways to abuse myself. So, based on that, what I do know is there are plenty of ways to go about it if one feels the need to self-abuse.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit. May I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/

There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are the chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) So please keep posting!