Hi, I am kinda embarassed to post this but i have no one i can ask in real life so i guess i will ask here...
Is it normal to have a fascination with pain, and wanting others or yourself to hurt you? since i have been really little, i remember having feeling this way and would seek out movies/books/stories about these things. i also would have daydreams about hurting myself, starting in probably middle school, and have acted on it in the past. I dont know why i felt this way, and i have never heard anyone say they felt like this, so i was wondering if that is normal? If it is not, is it a symptom of something or just my ****ed up brain?
Thanks for reading!