So it's been a while since I've been writing on here, but I need some advice. It'll be long so please bear with me.

I was an Admin in a local economic aid group on Facebook, back in the early 2017 to December, where people could help each other with a few coins. In December I was facing a bad month and made a post about it to which another Admin offered to help me out. Sadly by December 29 it was clear I wasn't getting any pay and thus the problems started. I kept the other Admin updated with my situation, but it ended up sounding like excuses all the time and she got pissed though I actually did pay over half of it off by mid February. Though I came clean several times and excused and apologized to her, she made the others Admins warn about me in other groups and literally blackened my name, even though I was paying her off, but it wasn't enough. Today she said she'd give me til Monday 12 o'clock or else she'd set the other Admins loose on me. However, this evening they contacted my mother and told her about the loan and everything, to which my mom confronted me about it and was deeply hurt by it. She paid the woman off and my relationship with my mom has now been broken. I had a deal, an agreement with the woman and she made the others bring my family into it. It's so shameful and I'm so angry about it, I don't understand why they think it's morally okay to involve outsiders and ruin my relationship with my parents. It's unnecessary. I'm so ashamed I'm crying and I want to just run off. I live at home so I'm around them this weekend. And I fear my thoughts right now will bring me to that dark hole again.