Yes, making eye contact is easier than it used to be. I often can do it if the conversation is light - chit chat at the beginning, for example (not usually at the end of session though, too wound up by that point I guess).
It becomes much harder the "deeper" we go. I have a lot of shame. Most of the time when I'm telling her something hard I look at her shoes out of the corner of my eye. When it's something really hard I have found myself sinking into her couch and putting a hand up to hide my face (while not even looking at her shoes).
I do tend to kind of "sneak" looks at her, though, especially if we're sitting in silence (like while I'm trying to process what she said or vice versa), because it scares me to not know what she looks like (she might be planning to hurt me, I guess?). Sometimes she'll kind of bend her head down to try to make eye contact with me when I do that, and smile or nod or something to emphasize her point but also show she's not going to attack me. She's never said anything directly about eye contact with me though.
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