I just came out of inpatient one week ago. Now on this Friday night, I am feeling like I am going to lose it again. For 11 days I have been writing 3 new gratitude's a day, 1 positive experience every 24 hours but it does not seem to be working. Is it my subconscious sabotaging me? I am in panic mode because I fear changing my thoughts to positive thoughts? Or do I need more individual help?