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teejai: On Friday afternoon after the group i went up to the cemetry to put some flowers on my wife's grave as it would have been her birthday and to have my customary talk to her.After doing so Found i had gotten the time when the main gates close wrong(thought it 4.30 but it's 4.00 this time of year) and went into a hysterical fear sticken panic because i thought i was going to be locked in there. I know this is going to sound silly and stupid but i have a poor sense of direction/orientation and going through the main entrance was the only way i knew to get in and out of the cemetery.

Several months ago I found myself in a similar situation. I was in a brand new job and due to a misunderstanding, I'd gone to the wrong location to catch my ride home and I'd missed it as a result. I knew that somewhere there was a bus I could catch that would also bring me within walking distance of home but I had no idea where that bus could be found. Feeling foolish, I ended up phoning the ride I'd missed and insisting that the driver turn around and come back to pick me up.

Having been through the situation I now know what to do if I ever miss my ride again, but at the time, I felt as small and despondant as a kid lost in a department store. Everything was new and unfamiliar, and I didn't know where to go. I was lost. It's that simple.

Beep the fact of how it might make some people feel worse trying to live up to this agenda which is less about meeting the needs of the individual client than it is about imposing what is dictated to be good for the client.

What will happen if you stop going? Will you get in trouble? Will you feel like you failed? Will you feel relieved? Personally, I think I would stop going. To me, there's nothing wrong with recognizing that that which is supposed to be helping you, isn't helping. Then again, I don't seem to be that fond of formal therapy. Like you, I resist the imposed structure. But I am a fan of recognizing that some things might be beneficial. Is there any way you can create for yourself what the "formal structure" is supposed to do for you? What is it supposed to do for you anyway?