Hi everyone. I have been dx with generalized anxiety disorder, major depression and PTSD. But today's fear and panic are brought to you by the letters MRI- specifically, an MRI on my knee. I am 45yrs old- and an ex smoker. My fear circles around lung cancer. My Dad was dx with stage 4 nsclc in 2012 and passed away that same year. My twin brother was dx with stage 4 nsclc in 2016 and is still fighting it. They are not the only 2 people with this same dx in my family. Dad's was dx'ed during an MRI on his hip- they saw a tumor and did a biopsy and found the lung cancer that way. Needless to say- I am terrified. My MRI is tomorrow and I think I probably won't sleep until after it's over.
How do you push through this without fainting? How do you make yourself "do the right thing" and have the test done even though you are terrified? My whole life might change in the blink of an eye. I just don't know what is better... knowing or not knowing.