My anxiety is really bad. Regular meds didn’t help, the first Ativan did nothing. I tried getting out of the house, but every single place was beyond crowded. The grocery store checkout lines were through the store. Both malls were jam packed. I guess 9-5 Mon-Fri jobs don’t exist anymore. At least that’s how it seems now. I used to be able to shop on my days off with no problem. I had to leave quickly at all the places I went to.

I went to KFC and then took another Ativan thinking a huge caloric nightmare meal would make the Ativan work. Since that’s been the case before. But nope. Anxiety was still through the roof.

I took my night meds. Anxiety got minimized a bit but not a lot.

I have to work both Saturday and Sunday.

I mean, I’m not full time, so naturally I’m not technically overwhelmed, but I am very reliable, and I Show up to work. So I’m getting more hours.

I feel like I have an image to keep up. I guess I try to hard to be perfect.

I don’t know. Maybe it’s just work that’s got me down.

Does anyone have any suggestions?