Yeah, I’m in a constant manic/psychotic mode and I’m having the same kind of anxiety that you’ve described. My heart is a full metre outside of my chest, beating, beating, beating and my body is numb yet vibrating.

I fear that my heart will seize at any moment and that I will die. I have this feeling that I must do something before I die but I don’t know what that something might be.

I take Xanax. At least four 1mg tabs per day. Sometimes more, PRN. None of that other crap works for me, either.

Do you fear death?

***There’s a party at my house tonight***