Thanks Heather.....

I am glad yesterday is over. A big day for my ex girlfriend's family and I hadn't been alble to share this in the past so I was so much looking forward to it this year. I stayed in and I think that the stress of the whole day triggered a "cluster headache". These headaches usually happen in clusters (hence the name). The pain is unbearable, often compared to amputation of a limb without anesthesia. The good thing is that they usually only last about 20 minutes to 2 hours tops. Unfortunately yessterday I had one that lasted almost six hours. At least heat relieves the pain somewhat, at least makes it somewhat bearable for me.

The ramifications of this relationship unraveling are just coming to light for me. I was going to ask her to marry me once my depression was under control and I had finished cleaning things up in my life. She is hte sweetest, kindest woman and I miss her so much. I know that there are those on this board that give advice to put her behind me and move forward with my life. That is easier said than done.

I feel such an incredible sense of loss and the loneliness and isolation is unbrearable at times. I just don't know what I am going to do.