Found my son on my computer on google looking up pictures of dead bodies, dead bodies in coffins, dead bodies with blood on them, etc....I am broken. What is wrong with my little boy? Is this normal for a seven year old? I don’t think so. He still seems so happy. Maybe he’s just curious about death. I’m so glad I found him someone to talk to. He needs help.

We both need help. I’m holding back tears and I just want to give up and go back to bed. Forever. I was all set to self harm but my son knocked on the bathroom door. He knows how to unlock it so I decided not to. I’m vaping desperately but it’s not as satisfying. I want to go back to smoking because I want to kill myself passively.

Ugh. Sleep.