Sorry for bumping this. I figure it is better than a new post.

My depression and anxiety started getting better after I got my lease renewal notice. They want to raise my rent $75 a year. That is more than the previous 9 years here combined. It also brings it very close to the principal and interest payment for my new house and by next year rent here will surpass that. I get charged separately for water/garbage/sewer so I am used to those extra fees. If I took much longer looking I would have to go month to month, which used to be an extra $100 but is now $300! So I dodged a very expensive bullet.

So I should now be very happy I got this done in time(interest rates have already risen close to 1% since I first got my prequal letter, although it went up 0.3% by the time it locked). If I tried to buy it today I probably wouldn't even qualify and would have to start looking at older houses that are more expensive to live in and need more repairs. So yay?

After a few days of relative inner-peace, because let's face it, this is a huge purchase for me and will always be a source of stress, I have had three bad days in a row. This morning was as bad as ever. I woke up with close to what could be called seizure auras although I think it was just an extreme anxiety attack. So I took a klonopin and slept 4 more hours ruining my day. Oh, yeah, my psychosis symptoms are getting worse now also.

I have an actual question this time. What is a good way to help keep myself on a relatively even keel? Is there a supplement that won't knock me out or some kind of mental exercise? And for the excessive depression. While I have these things daily, and probably forever, this seems to be an acute, situational case and not the new normal, I hope. I hated taking the benzo, first time in months, but I really do think I was heading for a trip to the ER which would increase the odds of commitment which would kill the house deal.

The increased depression is from not talking or seeing my realtor in nearly 2 weeks. I guess I could contact her with a dumb question but I know for a fact that she is very busy and I don't want to be a pest.