I finally wrote a glimpse of my detached violent thoughts in my journal I wrote last week and gave it to T. She won't read it until Monday, per previous comments. I'm now thinking about emailing her and asking her not to read it. I have been struggling a lot lately with detachment/ depersonalization/derealization like symptoms. When I am this detached, I often have these types of thoughts.

I have told her in the past that I have these thoughts and dreams, so she is aware they are in me. I usually just leave it at a statement saying that I had violent thoughts/fantasy. This time, I wrote a sentence of my thoughts. Still no details because this one wasn't an ideation, more a statement that indicates level of detachment.

Has anyone shared this type of information? Did it change your relationship with your T, if so, how?