I'm having a rough few days. I got triggered somehow. I have that sinking, death-like feeling. Like the world is closing in, or the floor is falling, or just all the energy is blown out of me and all I feel is hopelessness and dread.

I have been putting in so much work over the last few months once I found out I have Complex PTSD. It has been so hard. I'm in trauma therapy, trying out EMDR, neurofeedback, DBT, reading countless books, trying so hard to be in the present and recognize when I'm in flashback mode.

Sometimes I don't know what's the point to all this. It feels like my life is in shatters and I'm not going to pick up the pieces no matter how hard I try. I feel like I got destined to have a miserable, lonely life. One where I don't achieve anything I have been working so hard for my whole life. I just don't feel that feeling that "life is a gift". Life is a slog for me. And if it's like this forever, really...what's the point to this work? I realize I may be having a flashback as I type this. But I'm not sure...maybe it's the truth.

Does anyone have some positive progress stories to give me some hope?