Hello queen: I'm sorry you are feeling so... defeated...? (I don't know if that's the right word. But I know the feeling.) I'm afraid I don't have any particular positive success stories I can share. But hopefully others will & you will find coming here to PC to be of some comfort & support.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit. May I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/

Also... here's a link to the Complex PTSD forum in case you haven't been there already:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/complex-ptsd/

There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are the chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) So please keep posting!