Session with T today.

Talked about his distance, coldness, feeling like I was being punished, etc. I talked about it from my end, and how I was feeling and perceiving everything. I did not say a word as to how I thought he was feeling.

He asked for examples as to when I had felt those things. I knew he would so I was ready! Out of all of them, he specifically only apologized for one.

He admitted to feeling hurt by my leaving so abruptly. That it made him feel like I had not valued the work we were doing. He said he was experiencing counter-transference, but did not go into further detail. Although he did seem very concerned for how it had affected me.

He's very much a blank slate T, but said that he was willing to do things differently. He seemed to soften and warm up and by the end of the session I felt a connection to him I had not felt in a long time.

I have hope we can work through this.