I've talked to my T (and Pdoc) about my "bad" thoughts. I have these thoughts against people who in some way or form, hurt me and put my life in danger. Once the "danger" has passed, I usually don't have those thoughts against that person anymore. But like ex-T, I still have those thoughts against her. They're lessening, but still present. It just shows how bad she hurt me by abandoning me.

T didn't act any differently when I told her about my thoughts. She did inform me that she's a mandated reporter, but that's only if I state I'm going to act on these thoughts. I reassured her I wasn't and as proof, ex-T is still alive and well. She laughed at that. (But everyone who knows me knows ex-T will be the first person I go after if I ever do snap).

My T normalized my thoughts stating that everyone has their own "bad" thoughts, and they don't make me a bad person. I even admitted to her that after watching my niece for 12 hours straight, I understand how moms can snap. She reassured me that it's normal, and it's okay so long as I can stay in control. And when I feel like I'm losing control, that's when I reach out for help.