Thank you so much to everyone that has responded! It will really does help to know sometimes that I'm not alone with all these conflicting feelings.

I'm glad I didn't email in haste and say I felt the urge to quit, because that seems to have settled a little, although it's still a few days yet till my appointment so I'm sure I will be met with those feelings a few more times before then! Currently my frame of mind is back to wanting to feel close, I suppose that's the pull part of the whole push/pull stuff!

Attachment is a hard and scary path to walk down I think for people that are insecure/avoident etc... at least now I think I am well aware what the next sessions focus will be!